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hi everybody!
heyyyyy it’s email time
first things first: a list of songs that have been stuck in my head
summer love by justin timberlake. because of this choreo I saw on IG reels months ago
somebody to love by justin bieber… baby bieber you will ALWAYS be famous
the first taste by miss fiona apple, specifically the line the Full is not heavy as empty, not nearly my love. Not nearly my love, not nearlyyyy ~
hold on by the Jonas Brothers. because an empty room can literally be so loud.
I like it by DeBarge. period
thank you I needed to get that out of my system so bad. okay moving on
hi everyone. how are you all. I’m doing great or maybe I’m manic but either way I am happy, hopeful, and holding space.
I SAW WICKED!!!!!
and cried a million times cuz I #AlwaysCared. y’all know media about female friendship is literally my favorite thing in the entire world, I was bound to love this movie regardless. honestly I thought it would be longer than it was but those 3 hours kinda flew by? felt more like an hour and 45
but my main takeaway is that everyone needs to stop ragging on those two women so hard for crying constantly. if I played any part in that movie I’d be crying buckets at the drop of a dime too like who’s casting the first stone?
I think both ladies did a phenomenal job and Jonathan Bailey I have some tasks I’d like you to complete.
in other news!
nothing crazy is happening but I feel myself getting my life together and I’m very happy about that (I started journalling). I also bought two journals from JetPens for 2025 LOL and it did cost A Lot. ♡
in my last email I said I don’t really have age specific goals but I’m now realizing I kinda do with my yearly goals/new year resolutions cuz my bday is so close to the end of the year. and so, I’m making those goals now. and here are some!
1. having hobbies
recently, I have been repeatedly asked what my hobbies are. and each time, I have to come up with something other than watching TV because is that a hobby? so my goal for 2025 is to have some real, concrete hobbies.
in my times of pinterestmaxxing, I’ve been recommended lists upon lists of things women wish they had done in their 20s and what everyone should do before they age and blah blah blah. but some of it does have value!
one pin I saw said to have five hobbies: one that can make you money, one that will keep you fit and healthy, one that will build your knowledge, one that will keep you creative, and one that will evolve your mindset.
I think the first one is kinda bs-capitalism-colonized-mindset but it does have value in our bs-capitalist-colonized system. no ideas for this though ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
the second is a good one and one that I had tapped into before but dropped: dance! I LOVE DANCE. and I say this every time I talk about dance but I really wish I had taken dance in high school instead of drama. I think it’s the greatest of all the performing arts. so I’m going to buckle down and make time in my schedule to do it regularly.
the third will be reading, which I’m also doing now!!!!! dusted off my kindle and have actually been reading recently. I’m rereading Talking to Strangers by Malcolm Gladwell, which I read when I first got my job at Verizon in 2021. it was the first book I had read since lockdown started. anddddddd one of the last books I’ve read in a long while. I still love it just as much as I did the first time around.
the fourth will be painting/drawing and perhaps photography? I’ve been looking at Nikon coolpix and I like the way they process light way more than the canon the camera guy gave me. digital photography is really fun imo, I think it, along with other pieces of technology that serve one purpose, require exerted effort and intention to use regularly and I want to be a more intentional person. I also love devices that can take me away from my phone.
the last one will be…??? girl idk. reading the bible I guess. “traveling” as a hobby is just so crazy to me in this economy. and networking as a term is strange to me. we will find out what I do with this one at a later date.
2. have a proper morning routine
I actually had such a great morning routine that I was consistent with at the start of this year! kept up with it for like two months too 😭 so I’m locking in one that again. the one I had before went like this:
7:00: wake up
7:05: brush teeth
7:10: make bed
7:15: do stretches
7:35: shower
7:50: eat breakfast
8:10: get dressed
I was thinking I’ll change it and do a new one but honestly looking back at what I had I kinda had it on first try 😭 so maybe I’ll do it again! but I deffo have to fix my sleeping schedule cuz as I’m writing this it is 11:42 PM. 7AM will nawt be seeing me.
I think the best habit I had was my daily stretches so thats number one on my priorities list right now. my poor green yoga mat has been collecting dust…
3. have quality nutrition and exercise habits
several times in the past few months I have realized somethign incredibly striking and possibly shame-inducing: I do not eat vegetables forreal.
like, unless it is presented to me by my mom’s cooking I will seriously just not even touch a vegetable. like they don’t exist in my mind outside of when I’m called down for dinner. and I like vegetables!
so I’m locking in on cooking for mysself and eating nutritiously, not just stopping wherever and eating whatever. genuinely my meal plan for the past five months has been eating whatever’s in the fridge for breakfast (or buying breakfast from a cafe or fast food place), eating whatever the cafeteria ladies are serving my kids for lunch, and eating whatever my mom cooks for dinner. and yes, theoretically, the food that the cafeteria staff serves to children should be nutritious but the way I’m eating? is not. again, I have a blind spot to vegetables.
so I’m going to start cooking. going to make lunch and breakfast for myself daily because I’m an adult and that’s what adults do. and I know that I can technically cook, I just don’t and hate doing it most of the time. and I’m scared of heat 🤷🏾♀️ don’t put me in a situation where I’m dealing with a stove or oven. but I’m going to start. and I will enjoy it, by force or by fire.
also I’m gonna start gymming again. am I in debt to Chuze Fitness? yes. will I pay that off? yes. at some point. don’t rush me. but I will be in the gym and I will learn how to use all the machines and get super crazy strong or something.
my only fitness goals are to 1) become flexible 2) get stronger and 3) not get winded easily. bonus if I can run without actually dying too. I think more than anything else I would like to be someone that runs, I have the physique for it anyway. and it would be really fun to race my kids at work and totally smoke them.
but in other-other news, I’m seeing upstairs neighbors at their live show next week!!!! and I’m super excited about it lol they’re having an afterparty too but I’m not an afterparty person I think. I’m a firm believer in don’t meet your heroes/social media personalities/celebs/strangers you have a parasocial relationship with.
buuuuuut yeah. that’s all. also does anyone wanna see kendrick and sza at sofi in may haha
I hope you're having a good day. take care of yourself, bye-bye! <3