Tried it, Didn't Like it
moving toward simplicity while swimming in complexity
Hey yall,
A while back I tried to make two newsletters. In fact I have tried this a few times, and so far every time I end up not liking it. I have had this struggle (which is probably mostly imagined) around being pulled in different creative directions that don’t seem compatible for so many years of my life. And once again in the spirit of getting to be—and getting to invite you to be—many things at once, I’m merging my newsletters.
All of my writing will come to this newsletter. Some of it will be about astrology, some will be about parenting, all of it will include my perpetual search for serenity, for breathing joy into my bones amidst living in layers of concurrent apocalypses.
I’m calling it Venus in Gemini because I in fact have Venus in Gemini, it references astrology to remind myself and you that I am indeed an astrologer and it is in fact my job, how I make money, a primary way I make myself useful in this world. It’s coming up on 30 years I’ve been a student of astrology and the incredible thing—especially having Venus in Gemini—is that sitting with someone, you, in an astrology reading is still one of my most awakening, joyful, gorgeous life experiences. It helps me expand my sense of what life can be, mine, and yours. It helps me turn my attention toward the poignancy and singularity of each human life, and remember there is a vast loving cosmos in which we are always held.
I’m also calling it Venus in Gemini because if you know anything about astrology you can catch a vibe: curious about so many things, feeling pulled in different directions, indecision, writing, thinking, sharing ideas. I’m always thinking, my writing should be more focused, should be about fewer things. But after 44 years of living with this mind, it’s clear it just won’t conform. It’s going to be about everything because that’s how I see things, for better and worse. And - the hilarious thing is that it’s actually probably about 5 things, and has been all my life. It’s about - how do I live in this incoherence that is modern life and how do you? How do we? How do you live with the heartbreak on offer at every moment? How do I? Writing here is my ongoing practice of finding a way to live in it, with it, through it.
I will write about parenting, because I am a parent and it’s consuming in sparkling and difficult ways. It’s also such a rich area for spiritual practice / is mostly my spiritual practice these days.
One of the threads of my life has been insight meditation and buddhism, but there’s been a disillusionment with that over these years of early parenthood for a lot of reasons. Disillusionment seems to be a thread also! And finding our present moment expression of spirituality that meets us where we are is another thread.
Lots of threads. And yet, it is simple. I’m here to be in conversation with you, to do my work of writing, thinking, feeling with you, toward joy, toward aliveness, toward swimming together in a clear lake of love.
With lots of Moon in Aquarius freedom and spacious feels, I always joyfully support you in unsubscribing if any / all of this is not your thing (and I don’t look at unsubscribes, do you don’t have to worry about offending me if we know each other.)
Feels good to be here with you in this, and like Anne Lamott says, may you feel god with you in this, whatever your this is. That’s my prayer of late.
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IN ACTUAL BODIES NEWS!
I’ll be at the Magical Marketplace at the Modern Witches Confluence in my real life body to meet with your real life body in San Francisco on November 2, Saturday, 9:30am-6pm at the sf county fair building, 1199 9th ave. I’ll be offering two types of readings - a Jupiter / Saturn reading for looking into purpose and inspiration, and a Venus / Mars reading to look at love and relationship stories in your life. Come say hi and or get a reading! I cherish being together in overlapping time and space. It’s a delight of so many magical people converging, join us!
Either way, thank you for existing, more soon,
Sarah