paring down
consolidating work offerings
I started this psychic internet communion aka this Mother Creature substack, and I had an idea about its form, and how it would function. My life has been not what I was expecting since, as life tends to be, thank god.
I took a walk without my phone this afternoon in warm rainfog. So humid and quiet at the beach, and it felt clear that I need to pause paid subscriptions on this newsletter and indefinitely pause parenting circles. So this email is to tell you that. If you have paid me to think and write and send you notes, and/or to join parenting circles with me and the magic beings who have joined so far, thank you. Despite the fact that I’ve been writing most of my life, I’m still ill-equipped to convey the slightly-embarrassed gratitude I have for your generosity in this way.
I’ve had this feeling for a couple months that I needed to pause and do less, or fewer public-facing things. Or feel less beholden in particular ways to produce, since it’s clear I’m not doing that in the way I planned. But I have been ignoring this feeling because it didn’t fit with my earlier plan. I have this idea that if I follow my intuition when it is inconvenient and changes the plan, I will seem unreliable and my business will suffer. This afternoon at the beach I remembered that even if that is true, it’s still my job to follow my intuition. Because this whole business exists to nurture intuition, connection, communion, yours and mine. So I must practice nurturing it even when it doesn’t go with my ideas of what a business should be, what I thought my business would be.
So I’m paring down for the time being. My back just went out, my beloved grandmother just died, I’m having surgery in September. My kids are starting new school and I want to (need to) take a minute to regroup and figure out what I actually have the capacity for in this season.
I’m still (so joyfully) offering astrology readings and I will update my calendar for those next week. I’m doing two in person events in SF this fall, which is SO exciting to me, and I will send word about those very soon.
Many blessings to you if you want to unsubscribe, or lie on the floor right now, or look out the window. I’ll be in touch soon.
Love,
Sarah