The Mother of all Messages
Nature is everything.
I love nature, me! It’s full of cool stuff to look at, things to get lost in, things to get eaten by. Not so much in these isles, mind you.
I’m on the hunt.
I can’t seem to write at the moment. I keep having ideas, which pass and are flushed and right now I am writing for the sake of it, because I want to share, to feel connected. Skimming off the top so I can get to something that feels worthwile. I feel so lucky to be physically and mentally healthy, to be connected with all sorts of brilliant people and to spend some of my time helping people with their lives. I feel so lucky to work with people and help them to step away from their busy minds and difficulties to gain some perspective.
This stuff has happened slowly and sometimes I doubt it will happen for me as a career. I sometimes make it feel difficult, in my mind, like it’s not happening quickly enough and I feel frustrated because of that. I’m sharing this because it’s true. I have every intention to help people, in fact the more I grow up the more I see that’s all I have ever wanted, but it’s a tool that needs to be tuned in order to work correctly and powerfully. Sometimes it misses and often it hits - that’s the learning part. I just have to get up and start again.
A couple of weeks back I said that I would stop marketing. I got some feedback about that. As it turns out people like hearing about what I’m doing and are interested in experiencing what I offer. So, I’ll keep plugging stuff.
I wouldn’t be me if I didn’t share. I have to share what’s going on for me. This story is nothing but human, just like everyone else’s story. There is no such thing as perfection (everything is perfect), we are all in this mess together to acknowledge, care for and support each other. We all have different strengths and skills and we can support each other this way.
I work part time in construction to pay the bills, I have 2 kids, one of whom is a toddler with no off switch (what toddler has?!) and childcare is split 50/50 between my amazing wife Beth and I. We have a daughter Rae, who’s 10 years old and loves Taekwondo and horse riding. We have an allotment and a mortgage. The ordinary extra-ordinariness I love. I am currently studying clinical hypnosis part time for 6 hours per week and I spend almost all my free time learning about that and how to build up the tools and logic to think and reason and be without losing the plot. To help myself and then others to see the world more clearly. Always tuning up, always wanting to share cool stuff.
My mother got home from hospital today after being in a near-fatal car crash, together with my aunt, on the 19th January. I’m amazed that nearly 12 weeks later they are both so well and able to walk, even! It feels like they are superhuman for what they have survived. They are resilient and powerful, there is no doubt. The thing is, my mother was changed physically forever by that accident but she also changed in other ways, call it mentally, or spiritually. Despite everything she’s been through (15 broken ribs, for starters) she has been a phenomenal healing powerhouse, absolutely and positively determined, cheerful, happy and resolute - in fact I have never seen her as positively charged. There’s so much to learn from, there.
There is a lot to gain from being a person in the world; being misunderstood, ordinary, challenged, like an outsider, like an insider, physically broken, mentally damaged, not knowing what’s going to happen and being open to change. That’s our work in the world, our purpose. Doing the things I love to do as ‘my job’ is always there on the list and I am always opening up to it.
Anything can happen for anyone. Stuff we want, stuff we don’t want. It’s how we deal with all that, that counts. All the depth is there right in front of us, anything we might want to learn from. Life is the teacher, the medicine, the JOB we are doing.
It’s all perfectly NATURAL