It has been a busy, busy couple of months for me -- thus the reason you haven't heard from me in a while.
The momentum of life feels relentless these days.
Some of it is personal to my life -- retreat, multiple community events, three kids at three different schools all with competing end of year spirit weeks and teacher appreciation events, my own inner work realizations that feel like a casual rapid-fire deconstruction of everything I've ever known (you know, all the normal things).
And some of it is not -- there is so much going on in the local-to-global world that is drawing on our collective attention, pushing us past our human capacity to process, pulling us more into disconnection and away from our humanity. It's a lot, a lot. Perhaps you're feeling it too?
In periods like these, I find it useful to remind myself that I can be with it all without understanding it all; that it is, in fact, possible to honor what is even without landing in understanding of what is.
When the mind gives up the scramble to find security in "final" understanding, we can open to what is actually unfolding in this moment, following that into the next. Sometimes, understanding arises when and as it's available. And sometimes, it doesn't.
But, as uncomfortable as it is, arriving at understanding isn’t the point.
The point (and the practice) is to be with what is, to honor the moments as they unfold with reverence and humility; an acknowledgement of the futility of impatience and intellectualization.
As we lean into this way of being in relationship to life, a surprising outcome is that we begin to cultivate a deeper sense of trust in something other than our minds. We begin to trust that we have capacity from somewhere else that allows us to meet the conditions of life; a resiliency that grows not from trusting the mind but from trusting the self.
So this is where I am at the moment, leaning into the space where I don’t need to know; the space where I am learning trust.
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As a heads up, I will be making the move over the Substack -- a platform that will allow me share more with you -- in the near future. For my newsletter subscribers, this only means that my notes to you will come via Substack - you don't need to change a thing. BUT, I am really looking forward to utilizing all the capacities of the platform to engage with you more, differently, and in ways that feel more connected. Stay tuned for more info on what this will look like and what it means for those of you who choose to engage beyond these monthly letters.
With great big Love for each of you,
