End Of Year Edition!
Things I Care About Right Now (7)
December 25, 2025
Note: I've been writing this on and off for like a month so if anything doesn't make sense (more than usual), well, there we go
My birthday was last week! If you wanna help me celebrate you can hit up my cash app, my ko-fi, and/or check out my Gift Hero![^1]
We've also launched the QTBIPOC Storm Mutual Aid Bundle, where you get games and zines by QTBIPOC creators and the money goes directly to them. It's open until January 2nd!
I've prayerfully finished this semester and if there was ever any evidence needed that accommodations work, look at my grades from last year (when I had accommodations) and this semester (where I forgot to ask for accommodations because memory problems are actually a part of my disability!). I'm incredibly worried about funding to finish my degree and hopefully will have a great update next month!
Classes have started up again to get my certification in Pathways in Victim Services and I'll hopefully be finished by the middle of January! The program was on pause due to the government shutdown and I'm a little sad that I won't be finishing school and the program at the same time, but overall I'm just glad I can keep going. I really like what I'm learning and I'm looking forward to finishing!
Ninety-nine percent of the reason I'm making sure I post this is because I've put together an end of year list for myself and also cause on my 2025 Bingo I have to do a post evey month or something to that effect. Most are in order of favorites to slightly less favorites, probably. I'm sleepy, I can't really say that with a hundred percent confidence. Here we go!
My Favorite Things I've Been In/Created
Blue Communion: a 1000xResist Fanzine
My Favorite Books This Year
Sensory: Life on the Spectrum: An Autistic Comics Anthology edited by Bex Ollerton
How To Tell When We Will Die: On Pain, Disability, and Doom by Joanna Hedva
ZINES AND MANIFESTOS
My Favorite Games I've Played This Year
Fledgling Manor by in secret places (shout out to silas for the recommendation!)
Spiritfarer: Farewell Edition by Thunder Lotus (still playing)
taking my Dark Knight Girlfriend to the corner store by breathlesswinds
My Favorite Movies I Watched
Sinners
Revenge
The Stepford Wives
Kpop Demon Hunters
A Quiet Place: Day One
The Long Walk
Belle
Wake Up Dead Man [^5]
Wicked:For Good
Weapons
Heretic [^6]
Following (2024)
My Favorite TV Shows I've Watched
Black Mirror
Harley Quinn
North of North
Severance
IT: Welcome to Derry
Alice In Borderland
Killjoys
School Spirits
Clairebell
Save Me Season 1
Stumble
Somewhere,Somehow
Dollhouse
Us
Favorite Things I've Interacted With
1. THE INTERNET CAN BE SO COOL
"No, instead, the transsexual's mind is the freest it has ever been – due to two reasons that complement each other. Apriori, the practiced transsexual might notice that their identity is more often than not ostracised, diminished or declared the enemy. Recognising that your very position in our modern society threatens the status quo by mere existence subsequently challenges every societal norm about “gender” as a whole. One might conclude that the inhibitions about who you 'really' are, who you 'should' present as, who you 'might please' with your attitude hold no power over your identity anymore. Because you will always be a threat to the people considering you inhumane, it does not matter in which direction you step. It does not matter if you become more or less feminine; more or less masculine, more or less androgynous - you will never be considered ‘enough’ to the people believing that you are sick deep down - so your self-conception could not matter less to them. This is a freeing realisation." Yes, I Am Trans; No, I Am Not Trapped! by Maximilian/Octagon
WHY ARE THERE SO MANY COOL THINGS ON THE INTERNET?!
I've spent the past gestures towards the linear time counter scrolling neocities more than the microblog services[^2] and it's been a fantastic idea. The only downfall is, there are too many cool things happening and I cannot experience them all and also absorbing information is work (the fun kind) and I am tuckered from capitalistic societal expectations plaguing me at the moment[^3][^4].
Anyways.
I missed out on the early 00s MySpace era where apparently everyone learned HTML/CSS, so I've been playing catch up on the small web/indie web movement.
"Where are the servers maintaining my 'cloud' storage? That's a funny thing about clouds, they're physical water. That's not gas, you don't see the gas, you are seeing physical (liquid or frozen) water in the air. Where is the physical data I am sending across the internet. Who owns that room that those computers sit in. Do I own that room? If I do, no one told me." ~I miss the hopeful internet by WhatNames from Manifesto Jam 2022
lil notes (you should check these out)
In Praise of Slow Games by Artur Ganszyniec
2. Duplex for the Sick & Tired by Kay Ulanday Barrett
I really love this poem. Being disabled can feel isolating, especially with covid denialism rampant, but poems like these are good reminders that community still exists.
3. So
I have cramps and I'm sleepy so that's all for now. Have a great rest of your year and I hope 2026 is kinder, sweeter, and all kinds of better for you!
Notes*
[^1]: I think one of the things that makes me waffle between shouting out my lil money apps versus keeping it to myself is the realizing, intentional forgetting, and re-realizing that no amount of money can keep me safe--not from everything, from some important things, sure, but no amount of money can undo the harm that I talk about in this newsletter and it can't necessarily prepare me for inevitable hurt that comes with living. Anyways, it's still nice to have a fleeting belief that if I could do something worthwhile, for myself or for someone else, if I had a little money in my pocket.
[^2]: even though many neocities have their own microblogs!
[^3]: I'm still in school.
[^4]: You and I both know I am prone to hyperbole and we should all just be used to it at this point.
[^5]: I was raised Catholic (kind of, it's a story), it just has to be this way.
[^6]: See number 5.