So, by the time you get this email (I write and schedule my emails in advance), it should be near the point where I’m wrapping up drafting this book.

In the moment where I am writing this email, it’s April 30th, and I’ve just hit 47.5k words in my WIP.

But, here’s a thought. I don’t know if I’ve already said this, but this WIP is technically a draft two. I’ve already written a version of this book - it was urban fantasy, had a ton of elements in it that no longer work for the current version, and was just overall not written the best.

Yet, I read a piece of it today - because I’m incorporating all the parts of it that I can salvage and repurpose - and I felt bad about my current project.

In case that sentence was too confusing, here’s what happened: Me read old version of book. Me feel bad about current version of book. Me feel silly.

And I do feel silly tbh. There’s part of me that’s hurting because this story will never get told. Even though there are so many messy, really confusing, poorly written parts of it, the baseline concept is good. When I read it today, I thought…damn. I’m never going to get to tell that story.

It hurt even more when my brain tried to tell me that the current concept for this story is somehow much much lamer and more cliche and not interesting compared to the original storyline.

Brains can be so unkind sometimes.