dear friends,

today's letter is from a blog post i wrote this week.

i hope you enjoy it.
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i had an experience in LA in 2023 that turned my life upside down: i had a psychosis that lasted for 48 hours.

while i got out of it alive, a part of me died along the way. i knew something about me had changed but it was hard to explain what. even now, I struggle to make sense of it.

the best i can describe it is that my psychology underwent surgery.

suddenly i had a deeper urge to live a spiritually fulfilling life. i felt more connected to the natural world and attuned to higher quality thoughts.

there was also a gravitational pull towards desires i had yet to discover.

in this email, i will talk about one of them: music.

i have zero musical background. i was never in a band and didn't learn any instruments growing up. it was one of those things i never considered.

the first time i entertained the idea was during an encounter with a psychic in LA. her name was athena.

athena was an eccentric. she had said a lot of things to me that eventually happened in real life.

during our time together, athena told me to write down two things on paper:

1. i will study sound to know myself
   
2. i am a music liberator
   

i told her she must be mistaken because i'm not musically inclined.

she retorted with "...yet."

i'm open to psychics, but i'm also skeptical. i thought she was only pulling my leg.

three months later post-psychosis, i found myself one day enamored by a video of a woman playing eleanor rigby on the piano.

i thought to myself, "what if i took up singing and piano lessons?"

it was an exciting idea but i also thought it was silly. did i actually think anything would come out of it?

in the same week, i visited my friend at her house. we hang out in her room and i see a microphone on her table.

"you have a nice mic," i tell her nonchalantly.

she responds, "thank you. i'm taking singing lessons."

and that was it for me. they say that when something comes in 3s, follow it.

i sign up for singing lessons on the same day. a month later, i signed up for piano lessons. two months later, i enrolled for guitar lessons.

i practiced every day for 12 months. 2023 was my year of rest and relaxation. i didn't have a job other than to sit down, play the instruments, and sing.

life happened, i took a 7-month break off music, and now i'm back again.

to learn music at this age is humbling. it's one thing to be a beginner. it's another to be a slow learner.

there's no conclusion to this because i'm still in my process. i will say though, that this is one of the best decisions I ever made.

all in all, the traumatic event in LA was a blessing. i wouldn't have it any other way.

below, i share two videos showing my my piano progress. i will not share my singing or guitar yet. i have to prepare myself to be exposed in that light.

seven months into my music training, my piano teacher told me to participate in the school’s online piano recital. i was not into it because it looked like a kiddie concert. nonetheless, my teacher was persistent and ended up persuading me.

i want to thank her because it was mega fun. true enough, i was the only adult. all the participants were 5 to 12 years old. maybe there was a fourteen-year-old in the mix but that was it.

📺 media portals

• the science behind synchronicities: if you're more left-brained, this interview may interest you. robert grant is a polymath who merges metaphysics, spirituality, science, and math all together. i like how he says that our akashic records is the blockchain of our emotions. sahara rose, on the other hand, was an excellent interviewer.
• astra: an app my cousin cheska introduced to me. it's an AI that offers life advice based on astrology, tarot, and astrocartography. you can ask your deepest darkest questions about career, love, past lives and anything related to your soul's journey. if you ask the right questions, you may realize something about yourself. i will probably do a full video on AI soon because of this.
• waking life (2001): an animated film about philosophy, existentialism, lucid dreaming, and the meaning of life. the first time i watched this in high school, i thought it was nonsensical. now that i'm older, i find it enlightening and ahead of its time. a trippy film by richard linklater—the director of dazed & confused and school of rock.
• the abundance book: a book athena recommended to me when i met her two years ago. if you want to surrender more to universal abundance—abundance unattached to a job, person, investment, or limiting belief—read this book. a short read to revisit more than once.

🌧️ good bye, for now.

until next week, dear friends.
may you embrace your unique frequency.

xx

🦋 angel sandy
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💬 watch or read my transmissions
📻 listen to my podcast as told by sands

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