Gongs, vibrations, emo dad
this one may contain some real feels.
i wrote a really stupid/silly thing also that i'll send next to make up for it
gongs
i made a beautiful new friend yesterday named taran. the 'r' is pronounced sort of like a 'd' and sounds almost like “ta-da!” the sound you make after a magic trick or an *effortless catch.
taran invited me to a… buckle up… 7 hour gong bath in cancún.
you lay down and go to sleep and the gongs carry you away. it’s supposed to be very healing.
i do believe in *vibes …
cats vibrate their bodies to heal themselves. everything is vibrations… so, why not believe in the gong bath? i was on the fence this morning, but i think i’ve just talked myself into going
the people i know here would score pretty high on a spiritual/woo scale. i’d be curious to know where you rank yourself on a scale from 1-10(lemme know).
some of the cult-ural things around woo kind of turn me off, but i’m pretty open and consider myself very spiritual. i just don’t wanna believe everything that guy who drinks his own pee says. know what i mean?
being raised mormon, and subsequently leaving, left me with a skepticism that is both blessing & curse. it comes in handy for spotting a charlatan, but there’s a power to belief (even just placebo for example) that i wish i could more easily access- especially because it really does feel better to let go and let todd.
taran is someone who's in the *effortless flow state. he told me about how he took a chance and moved his life, and things started to click. it's inspiring to see. like tubing in a river, cold-one in hand... just gliding to wherever you're going, and having a laugh while you're at it.
i'd like to trade my subscription to the sisyphus times for a tubers digest
the emo part 🫣
i have been on such an emotional rollercoaster since I got here!
i had a moment where i actually thought: “when i die i hope this is on the highlight reel that flashes before my eyes” ...so, like a top 5 all-time moment. 10/10
i’ve also had some intense discomfort/anxiety/fear and just general uncertain-iness. overall, i think i am currently in the liminal space of my mid-life. and having growing pains.
i think it all caught up to me today and i woke up feeling MySpace era EMO
after taking a break and getting sun... i have to say that i am feeling grateful for friends and life itself. my heart feels overflowy, mostly with love.
if you made it this far, thanks for reading :)
speaking of woo- for anyone who doesn't know this track or the yves tumor one that samples it- i think they're both beyond gorge, and maybe slightly dramatic like myself