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DIIV
Regency Ballroom
2024 6 7
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i wore the parappa hat because it was neon orange
like the hoodie i’d bought as XXL and cut to crop
and, the stripe on the side of my leggings,
that fluoro orange, coloring fear, un/natural warning
you will lose it — something true — don’t approach
and don’t pretend you
didn’t see it coming
i keep flipping back the calendar of my life
how could i have prepared myself for
the paper cut (i didn’t see it coming)
though i’d been running the knife along my thumb
for days, even weeks, even months,
begging the air for a little more oxygen
a bit more burn
in the lungs
like a flame hanging on
by a ghost of breath
ah!
ah
a
i listen to “soul-net” while walking to the bus stop
while on the bus
while walking from the bus stop to wherever it is
i’m supposed to go
calendar event set days, even weeks, even months ago
regular appointments
like my cats throwing trash around in the morning
and my dog’s soft howl
force me out of bed
the blankets laid out neatly
as though nothing had slept in them over the night
i gaze in the mirror
red crescents under my eyes
red crescents being bombed
red moon rising
no, the phrase is “red sun,” to herald
blood in the night
blood, in the night,
and rust, in the morning
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SASAMI and Glixen also had pretty solid sets, though… I’ll leave it there. Thanks for “listening.” Stay tuned…!
🎶 xoxo Lio
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